Prayer

So it’s the weekend right?  I should be happy?  Well, yeh you guessed it, I’m kinda feeling the opposite and I still can’t get hold of Sophie.  I tried looking up her address but it pointed to a non existent house.  In fact, it pointed to a field, somebody screwed up good there.  It’s pretty sad when people can type in that kind of information and either believe that it’s right, or just leave it because they don’t care.  What is the world coming to.

I prayed for you last night.  It felt good.  Like a weight had been lifted off my mind, but I know it won’t do any good.  Perhaps that’s why.  My attitude sucks sometimes doesn’t it.  I just wish I could free you from the inevitable.  Wish I would take away all the pain that you are going to suffer.  I don’t know whether these posts are helping you, but I think they are starting to have an effect on me.  It gives me a medium to release my feelings, make myself feel slightly normal again.  It’s almost like I can leave my feelings about the whole thing here and get on with life.

Maybe it’s so that I can live in denial for most of the day and just have to think about it for fifteen minutes whilst I write my entry.  I dunno.

Peace

J

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