Left for dead

Got some time to play the Left 4 Dead 2 demo today.  Dang it, I really do need a new PC.  As I sat there playing, I couldn’t help think about my condition.  Why is it I don’t forget how to use a PC?  I mean, not just the basic stuff but more advanced things.  Why does my condition seem to affect memories of people,  places, things that matter.  Why can’t it take away things that I don’t really care about.

I know we’re not an item or anything, but thinking about losing all my memories of my time with Sophie is really grating me.  I was thinking about it whilst at work today.  Did I tell you I’m a shop assistant at a PC store?  The pays not great but I get a kick out of giving people “good” advice, something that seems to be rare these days.  But Sophie…….I’ll miss her………no I won’t I guess that’s the point.  She’s becoming super critical to my sanity.  For the first time, I’ve shared knowledge of my condition with someone else.

Sorry I didn’t finish up yesterday, kinda got to me.  We finished out meal and walked out along the shoreline.  I just don’t get it.  Even after what I told her.  I mean it would basically leave her life in ruins every two years.  We’d just get to a point where we were happy again and I’d go and lose everything.  Despite all of this, she stayed with me.  The whole afternoon.

Even with you guys, the future makes me feel so lonely.

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